About 2 years ago I had 1700 ~ 1800. I could play relaxed, listening to a song, doing anything on the board. So I increased from 200 to 300 rating points, remaining stable between 2020 ~ 2080.
However, chess is getting more tense for me. I can't play anything anymore, it's like 'swimming with the sharks' now. The victories are now sweaty, hard, the feeling after the game is one of relief rather than joy.
Has anyone here ever had this feeling? Does it only tend to get worse?
I'm not a tournament player, I play lichess ONLY, but as my level increases, the fun goes away!
I find this interesting, so I decided to share my experience!
From now on there seems to be only pain and suffering lol. I'm adept at cynicism (philosophically speaking), so I avoid bringing free worries, but it seems that from now on there is only hard work and pleasure will be less frequent ...
Maybe if I played tournaments I would get a boost of motivation, but playing only online and against players so hard for my skills is kind of frustrating!
Againt, I find this interesting, I had never thought about it! This is the sporting side of chess! That romantic and civilized two-player atomosphere playing a game of chess (like Magneto vs. Xavier in X-MEN) doesn't seem to exist in the lichess, there are only bloodshot opponents trying to win at all costs!
reflexion moment... lol
However, chess is getting more tense for me. I can't play anything anymore, it's like 'swimming with the sharks' now. The victories are now sweaty, hard, the feeling after the game is one of relief rather than joy.
Has anyone here ever had this feeling? Does it only tend to get worse?
I'm not a tournament player, I play lichess ONLY, but as my level increases, the fun goes away!
I find this interesting, so I decided to share my experience!
From now on there seems to be only pain and suffering lol. I'm adept at cynicism (philosophically speaking), so I avoid bringing free worries, but it seems that from now on there is only hard work and pleasure will be less frequent ...
Maybe if I played tournaments I would get a boost of motivation, but playing only online and against players so hard for my skills is kind of frustrating!
Againt, I find this interesting, I had never thought about it! This is the sporting side of chess! That romantic and civilized two-player atomosphere playing a game of chess (like Magneto vs. Xavier in X-MEN) doesn't seem to exist in the lichess, there are only bloodshot opponents trying to win at all costs!
reflexion moment... lol